#what if for years after this bones can’t sleep if jim falls asleep before him #he knows jim is fine and it’s irrational to be scared but bones can’t help it #he lies awake for hours watching jim’s chest rise and fall; fixates on the flicker of jim’s eyes behind closed lids #if jim lies too still for too long bones will nudge him just to be sure; jim mumbles sleepily in protest or rolls onto his side and it’s okay #sometimes jim will pull bones into his arms; holds him close enough for bones to hear his steady breaths and it’s even better ©